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Summoning the Prince of Fire

Summoning the Prince of Fire.  Etching by Constantina Wood

Reading the Canticle of the Sun recently during my personal morning prayer as a novice Franciscan, I found my belaboured brain wandering over the previous weeks of tutoring several 2nd year A Level biology students.  The final module of study contains an exhausting procession of biotechnological methods accompanied by a never ending stream of nomenclature that is, at first glance, mind boggling.  I studied my degree many moons ago when biotechnology was an emerging science.  Mapping the human genome was seen as an impossibility, as PCR or polymerase chain reactions had not been invented to ease the path, and the sheer beauty of the process of DNA translation and transcription was still being unravelled and investigated.

It is a truly awesome world inside the cytoplasm and nucleus of every cell. Even the cell membrane has munificent properties – little gates and regulators that allow certain molecules and ions in and out as required. I wonder what St. Francis would have made of this microcosm of endoplasmic reticula and mitochondria?  I have no doubt he would be totally enthralled and joyous at the complexity and astounding organisation. Even after studying a large portion of biological sciences for my degree and teaching similar topics endlessly, I am still delighted each time I unfold the mysteries to each new student during the year.

Biotechnology has been a steep learning curve for me.  I am more at home with the delicate balance of ecosystems containing a diverse variety of animalia and plantae; or the incredible mechanisms of cell respiration and photosynthesis.

After going through the nth problem relating to the insertion of DNA into plasmids and figuring out lengths of strands cut by restriction enzymes I have begun to feel more at home in this strange nucleic world.  There is a mathematical order and underlying design based upon an incredibly simple substructure relating to a double helix and four bases that order themselves in triplets to code for the myriad of proteins required by the cell in order to perfom its functions.

My friend in the etching above, Israel ben Eliezer, would have been, like Francis, overjoyed with the paradox of simplicity within complexity.  He was an adept in the realms of the soul yet was cautious and thoughtful.  Unlike Rabbi Adam who was greedy for knowledge and wanted to rush his progress through esoteric training.  Despite stern admonitions from Israel, Adam neglected to remain awake during a complex summoning of the prophet Ezekiel and instead the Prince of Fire was manifested.  The latter being spirited away the luckless rabbi and Israel remained the sole proprietor of ancient wisdom and understanding.  Israel’s saving grace was his love for God, his patience and his lovingkindness to all living beings and creatures of the world.  Though he lived over 300 years ago he was like a modern Francis and had  the ability to talk to both plants and animals, of which he maintained there was only one person per generation who could do so.  I have another etching about that but will save it for another day.

For now I shall be content and study more biotechnology and hope to gain a deeper insight into the life of bacteria and plasmids.  Plasmids are litte rings of DNA found in bacteria that can be altered by genetic manipulation and then reinserted into new bacteria.  The bacteria that take up the recombinant DNA from these plasmids which are simply vectors, are called transformed.  The new DNA transforms the bacteria.

I sometimes wonder if our lives on the spiritual path are a little like that of the the humble plasmid.  We go round in circles in our lives for ever and a day until God comes along and makes a few changes.  We then continue but are different, transformed.  This transformation then infects others around us as our way of being is new or different. In biotechnology,  the uptake of the transformed DNA is very small, less than 1%.  Yet, perhaps if enough transformation is going on around the world then at some point there will be a critical threshold that is overcome and something new will emerge, quite rapidly.

It is a thought.  I shall continue to ponder on my dear little Franciscan plasmids for a while longer.

pax et bonum

 

A New Series of Videos

The Spiritual Journey with Icons

The Icon Board- the spiritual foundation

Click on each title and be transported to my living room for a cosy chat about icons in this new venture.

If anyone can tell me how to get rid of the noise of my laptop fan from the videos I would be eternally grateful as I am completely baffled by video editing software.

Taize – A Beautiful Experience

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A few weeks before Easter I went to Taize in the Burgundy region of France about five hours drive south from Paris. A lot of people know about Taize through the music and chants but for those who do not click here TAIZE for a link to their website.

I was especially keen to go this year as I had worked with some of the sisters of Saint Andre for the Churches Together England conference last year and one of them, who lives in Ameugny, just next to the Taize complex, was very keen that I should come.

Whatever loveliness you hear about Taize, do not believe it until you try it for yourself!  It was awesome, wonderful, beautiful and deeply moving.  It was also cold and sometimes not what you would expect.  For me it was a time to reinforce a sense of pilgrimage and acceptance of whatever was given but most of all it was the beauty of the services, the singing and the silence that held me in thrall. This latter feeling has stayed inside of me and is like a kernal or seed that will grow and develop over the years to come.

I learned many things- too many to go on about here but the most significant was the thought from one of the Brothers that Christ is on the way with us.  That little word on makes a world of difference – opening up Christianity into something that is all inclusive and not fixed or exclusive.

We heard from Brother Alois after his trip to see the inauguration of Pope Francis I and the Archbishop of Canterbury- he was filled with light as he told us how beautiful it all was and how he had a good feeling of the quality of this new Pope.  As a budding Franciscan I can say I am equally overjoyed.

Thank you Taize and all the people I met and became friends with and the brothers and sisters who work there tirelessly helping many people, especially young people to be and to grow in spirit.  My most especial thanks to the dear sister who nursed me when I was sick along with the German doctor she found and my friend who is another sister who encouraged and helped me to unload the burdens and sorrows of last year at the foot of the cross on the Friday night service.  We are made anew every time we step out in faith, We begin again, once more.

Some images from my week:

IMAG0386A particularly cold and stormy beginning to the week.  We ate in this tent, studied the Bible and shivered!

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Delightfully for me the whole place is filled with icons, there is an little Orthodox chapel in the Crypt, but the icons are where ever you go- even on walks outside in little covered over areas.  The call to prayer and to remember is at every turn.  I loved this icon especially as it is of the woman at the well.  The flaring light is a reflection of the flash and not on the image itself but the fire reminds me of the holy spirit.  I told my German friends, I formed a group along with, that the Samaritan woman has a halo.  They were amazed at this and had not noticed it because the Samaritan woman is often seen as someone less than holy.  If you think about her attitude to Christ is was wonderful- she listened to him, she understood his words and she knew that the living water he promised was real and something to be yearned for.  She rushed to her people and returned with them.  She was more of a disciple than his disciples.  Just like Mary- of Mary and Martha, and Mary Magdalene- these women intuitively knew and perceived the truth in Him and loved him for it.

IMAG0446Some of my friends from the bible study group: The brilliant Pavel from the Czech Republic, Connie- who was very thoughtful, Thomas- who was so dear, Claudia and another Connie who both offered quiet, considered thoughts.  Also on the left but just missed out on the shot was Ulrich who had been a missionary in south Africa for many years.  They all spoke english for my benefit and I learned so much from them.  We also had Bob Twobulls from the Dakota tribe in our group – he was a great listener and would then offer up some wisdom at the end which was worth the wait.

Not in our group but worth a mention was Adam from the States who has just written a sci fi book and has been travelling the world for a while.  He was so open and friendly to everyone and even managed to speak a bit of Texan Cockney! It was terrible but very funny.

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A bit blurred- the service of light on Saturday.

IMAG0425Sunset.

IMAG0442Sadly time to go.

IMAG0410Transfiguration.

Francis and Mary

Madonna Hodegetria

Madonna Hodegetria

A new Pope called Francis I who calls us to pray through the icon of Mary. An advocate of the contemplative life and a man of compassion.  May Christ’s love shine through him and spread throughout the world.

My joy is complete.

This image of the Madonna Hodegetria written by the iconographer can be found at All Saints Fulham London.

Buckland Bliss

Buckland Church, Aston Clinton

Buckland Church, Aston Clinton

Saturday 23rd February 2013.  A one day icon workshop, what I call a taster day, was held at the beautiful church in Buckland.  One way in to village only!  The lovely participants braved the cold and smatterings of snow to enter the church to the tune of Russian Orthodox chants, many candles and a host of icons.  Their fate was unclear as none of them had ever worked on an icon and a number had never picked up a paintbrush either, before.  It was an anticipated day and there was much excitement in this most warmly welcoming church.

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My two stalwart angels Michael and Gabriel ready to usher in the participants.

IMAG0335Lighting many candles- the warden at work.

IMAG0336Alison preparing much needed coffee and look at all those bikkies- it’s Lent Alison!  Wasted- she had prepared the most awesome lunch of homemade tomato and basil soup, homemade pate, smoked salmon, and a very melted brie with gorgeous bread from a local bakery and many accoutrements.  We needed the sustenance as everyone worked very hard.

IMAG0342Teacher’s desk- nice and orderly but not for much longer.

IMAG0344I think I was shaking when I took the photo- not from any wine but there was a lot of laughter and I am certain I descended into heresy at one point. Incited by the curate Andrew, below, I am certain.

IMAG0345We were working on the Roskrysh, or chaos.  Indeed!

IMAG0341The reredos.

IMAG0337Some of my companions on my travels.  Christ is going somewhere special shortly.

IMAG0347The Line Up- there were many comments about number 1 or 3 of 7 etc.  It was a regular police inquiry.  Who did it?

This was an extraordinary day as no one had used tempera before but very quickly they got the hang of how to mix the pigments and then found teacher changed the rules every five minutes with a new application and technique.  There was much exhilaration over the transfiguration of the green sankir to the flesh tones after the float was added.  Another full day would have seen the application of further highlights and more work on areas that required attention but for a first time, this was remarkable and of course they all want to do some more.  Yippee, but I will have to watch my waistline.

Lots of thanks to Liz the priest for allowing us to contaminate her church with pigments and eggs, for the wardens for being so spot on with all the arrangements and their remarkable joy and most of all to every single student who were simply treasures and so much fun to be with for the day.  There were so many characters and lovely stories. It was a day for me to remember with great warmth.

A new madonna in the making

Madonna of the Sweet Kiss in the making.

Madonna of the Sweet Kiss in the making.

A new commission for client in Australia.  So love working with Mary.

Red bole

Red bole

The red bole is a mixture of red clay and basalt.  When rubbed and burnished it forms a wonderful surface upon which gilding can be overlaid.

The technique for gilding I use is with the breath.  From earth to heaven in one exhalation.

Gilding done

Gilding done

Now she is ready for the egg tempera.  The first layer is called Roskrysh – which has a number of meanings – foundation, chaos, opening.

More to come when as I work on her.

Theophany begins – St. Mary’s Icon School 2013

work in progress- roskrysh

Work in progress- roskrysh

It has been a long time since I entered a blog about the St. Mary’s Icon school but that is because there is not enough time in my week to keep up a regular blog anymore.  Which is good!  But at the same time I do want to honour my students who are working very hard and taking the process of writing an icon extremely seriously.

2013 is the second year since I set up the school not knowing what would happen and how it would develop. It is one of my foibles not to worry overmuch about these things but to wait and see what transpires.  This is what makes life such and adventure and discovery all the time. People tend to be hung up of ‘numbers’ and ‘success’ as if they are the only markers for achievement – government take note.  As I work in education for 60% of my week tutoring students, I often see young people completely fazed and stressed, some as young as six or seven, because they are told they are not performing to some level or target.  There is a constant demand on the young to be reaching a target and this inhernetly sets up a cycle of inadequacy and fear of failure, or anger and rebelliousness due to the inaptness of the target for the person.  Parents unwittingly get drawn into this never ending wheel of inadequacy as they then start to fear their young people are not performing up to some arbitrary standard.

One of the beauties of working with icons is that is is a very forgiving technique, one builds up in layers from the rough roskrysh or foundation of chaos, to finer and finer levels of detail that bring out the beauty from the sturdy base layers.  Often the rougher the chaos the more bautuiful the finhsed product, the chaos is inherently beautiful  when studetns try to control it and paint it too carefully and too neatly the overlying layers become more wooden and less vibrant.

People, especially children, are not robots. They are human beings with thoughts and feelings and skills and talents, as yet mostly totally untapped, through being pushed into ‘achieving’ for the sake of being a number in a system that requires so many of these numbers to be in a certain category at a certain time in life.  This is control and it takes away the beauty of the true life of a human being.

My novice guardian pointed out to me the other day, in broken-hearted tones, that there is a rise of 68% in self harming in young girls in this country.  This makes one feel total and utter despair over a world that does not look at or listen to each person and see them as an individual human being.  Each one of us is unique and each one of us has at least one talent or skill that no one else has in the way we have.  Yet so many people live their whole lives without ever finding it, discerning it or enjoying it.  If the truth were known – it is our unique skill or talent that is the one thing, in contribution with all those unique skills and talents others have, which could make the world so much more joyful and exciting to be part of. The creation of the internet was through one such endeavour in that a whole group of American scientists were given carte blanche to develop whatever ideas they had without worry or direction or agenda except simply ‘to discover’.  Many ideas came to nothing, but from such a free thinking boiling pot, every now and then something radical and world changing emerges.

Social entrepreneurianism is the new buzzword and I agree wholehearttedly with it but to find good social entrepreneurs the world needs to allow its people to become who they truly are and to find ways to help them discern it.

There, now I have indulged on my soap box I shall post some great pictures from Aylesbury Quaker House and the Icon School- we had to move due to Ash Wednesday services last night.  My students learned to oil gild and then begin applying the first layer of pigment called Roskrysh- which means chaos, foundation and opening.  they are opeing the light which is white and allowing colour to bring life to the cosmos of the icon board.  See the concentration and smiling faces as this work of unification of worlds, dimensions, time and space unfolds in the mystery that is the Baptism of Christ – the Theophany.

Melanie smiling- our brand new student who is being baptised with fire and in at the deep end.

Melanie smiling- our brand new student who is being baptised with fire and in at the deep end.

Class in quaker house

Class in quaker house

Gill working as carefully as a.lways

Gill working as carefully as a.lways

Rona working carefully and studiously

Rona working carefully and studiously

Debbie smiling- hopefully not in pain from all the previous inscribing.

Debbie smiling- hopefully not in pain from all the previous inscribing.

Jan and Margaret who are hounds of focus and concentration.

Christine working on the painted transcript.
Christine working on the painted transcript.
Isobel deftly painting in some delightful angels with the most serene faces.

Isobel deftly painting in some delightful angels with the most serene faces.

Thank you muchly to the Aylesbury Quakers and especially Jane and Geoff the marvellously welcoming wardens. We shall look forward to bothering you again when we are homeless for an evening.

The Conversion of Paul

Running to the door of higher consciousness

So I run straight towards the goal in order to win the prize, which is God’s call through Christ Jesus to the life above.

All of us who are spiritually mature should have this same attitude. But if some of you have a different attitude, God will make this clear to you.

Philippians 3 v14-15

Becoming an artist was a struggle. It was always inside me but I found it hard to just put a mark on a piece of paper or a canvas. There was a time when a composition I had in my head would take months to realise and then I would look at it and be filled with horror at the inadequacy of my work and the lack of skill.  But this is the artist’s disease, we are always dissatisfied with what we do to some extent.  The trick is to learn to let that negativity go and move on to the next piece.

The image above is a very old painting, not expertly rendered but I love it because it sums up my driving force in life.  The original painting I had been working had filled me with despair – I had spent months on something only to squeeze paint directly onto the canvas and scrape it all off with a palette knife.  This was the moment of enlightenment.  The residual image imprinted on the canvas was of a figure in motion moving towards an area of light.  Immediately I saw it I started working with more oil paint directly onto the canvas and with a knife, sculpted the image as it appear above.  It took no more than half an hour.

I had my epiphany.

From that moment on I knew that if I was serious about becoming an artist I needed to work at it daily even if it was only half an hour.  Not doing it for months and weeks was no longer an option.  To see it as an adventure.  To follow where it led.  I had to be diligent and industrious, go to classes, learn more skills and develop, little by little.  Most of all it was to be a joyful experience.

That latter was not so easy as, in myself, I felt this overwhelming weight, like I was walking through thick black molasses every time I wanted to do some work.  It was the strangest and most unpleasant feeling but my inner determination and my lady running to her door of higher consciousness, as I called the painting above, gave me the inspiration and energy to overcome this weight.

I adore St. Paul. Not everyone does.  Not everyone agrees with some of the things he says.  But he is my boy and I love him for what he went through and suffered yet continued to do the Work.  He was one person but he became another.  His old life was transfigured into a new life, through Christ, and the skills he had before and used for worldly matters and for persecution of the church, were utilised anew with the same zeal for Christ in a different way.

My work as an artist developed and is still developing.  It is transforming in itself into new things and new ways and new opportunities.  The underlying force is transfiguration of the soul and the image above is synonymous with the process.  We pass through doors or spheres of consciousness and each time it is a tricky passage but once through the door we have a new world to explore.

Paul left behind the past and focussed on what he was doing in the present.  He kept his mind on the goal.  Union with Christ and doing, through Christ within. When this happens it is incredible what one person can do; there is an energy and lightness to everything.  A feeling of giving of the self not for others’ approval but solely for Christ, to serve Him.  The Work – that is the work that Christ wills us to do is more important than any other consideration. It is a joy because we know it will happen whether we mess up or not.  God’s Plan is relentless and He weaves in our idiosyncracies and mistakes, as an artist uses the mistake to create something new and something better than they had thought of originally.

So God bless St. Paul for his total commitment, even after imprisonment and many beatings and near drownings.  He kept his focus on the goal.  May we all learn to do the same to bring something brighter into creation.

Pax et bonum

Bliss, Birds and The Big Bang

Teacher with two hour old chick

Teacher with two hour old chick

Recently I was invited to join an internet group that is generally patronised by people from India.  It is probably the liveliest and most interesting group I have looked at and taken part in since immersing myself more fully into the world that the internet gives us access too.

What makes this group so lovely is that the participants are actively looking at how the spiritual impinges on their daily lives.  I am like this too but in the UK spirituality is not something discussed as part of a normal everyday conversation but for special times, places of groups.

So I actively look forward to some amusing, enlightening and wonderful posts.  Those whom I have so far interracted with have been generous, warm, funny and welcoming but also extremely wise.  I am learning a lot.

For instance a thought from VK is, “to think less brings much happiness, to not think at all….bliss!”  I read this and, for someone with a very active mind, surprisingly, was drawn to testing it out.  The old scientist in me is ever present.  Well the moment we tell ourselves not to do something we immediately do it more.  Music and art is very helpful.  When I am painting I have realised my focus is so great that I am literally not thinking about what I am doing it just flows – comes with hours of practice over many years.

Listening to music has the same effect but even easier as I just put in headphones and am transported.  So I have been actively not thinking whilst listening to music and for one day this week it was just as VK said, absolute bliss. I went to two meeting directly afterwards and both people, whom I know well, remarked at the difference in me, very positively, even they were affected by this deep peace and joy and quietness.

Later I was walking, with headphones duly plugged in, blissing along when I stopped to watch the starlings doing those wonderful patterns in the sky as they fly in flock.  Incredibly they seemed to be in sync with the music I was listening to.  Birds are amazing creatures and I love to watch them busily going about their life.  How marvellous it must be to just fly anywhere without worrying about a baggage allowance, passport and possessions.  Johnathon Livingstone Seagull here I come.

So what has the Big Bang got to do with all this bliss and birdy heaven? Well, kapow!  Just being in this state for a few hours seems to have unravelled something within and quite unexpectedly this has led to a big change of being in some way.  My attention and my pattern is altering.  A way of being I have wanted to attain, is being forced upon me by my own self and own process but what I could not do with thinking and intellect, I am now being led to do through this power of emptiness and bliss. It is not actually very blissful when the obstacles that have stood in the way are being cleaned out, but this is a necessary beginning before something new  in the self starts. It is a time of rapid expansion and new creation. I wonder what it will bring?  I have a sense of anticipation this New Year.

Conceptualising everything may be a way of limiting ourselves.  I propose non conceptualisation as the new way of evolution for human beings!

New Term

New Term for St. Mary’s Icon School begins Wednesday January 16th at 7pm till 9.30pm. Open to all, skilled or novice, new to icons or painting. Everyone is welcome and tuition will be by demonstrations, personal help and through continuing students. The spiritual content will continue to be developed and surround each session as this has been something all students have treasured.

Looking forward to seeing old and new students in this new term for the new year.

Constantina

Working on Madonna at St. Mary's

Working on Madonna at St. Mary’s

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